Current reading: The Godfather Returns
Inspired by: Heavy, My December Pick a Linkin Park song tonight
So, I wish I could find the right words to describe such a loss. The music industry lost a great creator today. I love this band. I have followed their evolution since Hybrid Theory. That album has so many songs that talk to me. I remember hearing Closer on the radio for the first time and I was like “okay guys, I’m listening.” The next song that hooked me was Crawling. The song that made me go out in the album was In The End. Once I listened to the album as a whole, the song Papercut stuck with me.
I thought, at the time and quite mistakenly, that they were a one genre, one style kind of band and then someone played My December for me. So much heartache lingered in that song. I remember crying the first time I heard it because I was fighting my own demons at the time. I remember the chord it struck. I still have a hard time with this song. It’s so…achingly lonely. I can listen to it now without tears but it still makes my heart hurt.
As time went on, more of their songs hooked me but I don’t think I really started listening to them closely until I heard the song “What I’ve Done.” That song is about atonement. It’s my interpretation, if you disagree, well good for you. =P Then I started going back and catching up. Now, I write to their music. There something in the tenor and lyrics that inspire me. It’s with that in mind that I started the writing below. This has no bearing on future or past plotlines, just kind of a what if in my writer’s mind.
Thank you for the impact your music had, and still has on my life. You will be missed.
Another moment more, Alexandra. Please. Nicholas snapped awake with a gasp. In dreams, she haunted him. In his dreams, she laughed, she breathed, she teased him without mercy. Fate took her first and left him to rot, he felt. Sea-shaded eyes and platinum curls danced just beyond his field of vision. Fate above he missed her. In a sudden rage Nicholas swatted the alarm clock from the bedside stand.
He cursed. What he wanted most in this world he could not have. To Nicholas, this was Fate’s path for him—suffer and wait. Just thinking about the fact exhausted him. Why hadn’t the cup passed to another? Nicholas watched his children; his grandchildren pass on but the burden of Johl’s book remained with him. The thought annoyed him more than he could give voice to. The temptation to just let the world burn was strong. Yet, in his mind, his duty was a yoke that he continued to pull. Like a faithful jackass. He thought with a scowl.
Fate’s tides were swirling around Kaylen Burke; he could see the path ahead clearer than the woman herself. He knew soon enough an adversary would present themselves.
Yet he could not find it in his heart to care about this conflict. All that he loved and knew was gone. You said once that duty’s halls were cold, beloved. How could you have known I would walk them without you? If she had, his beloved Sorceress never said a word. He knew she never would have. What would be would be, she would have said. If she were here. If this, if that, if solved nothing. If did not return her to his arms!
In frustration, Nicholas plowed his fingers through his graying hair and rose from bed. Again, he was alone in his prayers. The small altar in his bedchamber was a relic by today’s standards. Tess Starson and Emma Jacobs blessed the small marble stone for them the day they were wed. Engraved in the stone were their names, the date they were wed. This stone would go for a fortune in the modern world. Historians would have a field day with the names and dates engraved. In the modern world, it would be the only proof of their lives together.
For him, their life lived on within. Fate grant me the strength to carry this burden alone but, forgive me my wish to be with her, with them… these trials are too much this time. Light grant me the peace to see it through. In a whisper of movement, Nicholas would have sworn he felt her gentle, familiar touch. “Fate let me come home.” He whispered. For the first time in his long, long life Nicholas Taltos lost hope in the world surrounding him.
Just a snippet that twirled out of my fingertips, dear readers. I promise you. It was just an idea that came through while listening to that song. I do not know that I could do that to the poor man. He’s suffered enough, I think.
In random bits of news, head over to my Facebook page to check out teasers for the Maeselorian series and the new book Shadow’s Journey. My editor, the amazing and talented, Kymber Nations, has been gracious enough to help me design some absolutely gorgeous images that I get to share with you as the release date for the new book approaches. Please, check them out. Comment, like the page and hang out. I have a lot more in store as the days get closer.
Stay tuned to Facebook Live on October 1, 2017 at 7:30 PM EST for the cover reveal of Shadow’s Journey. Here are the teasers I have posted so far. The first is from the upcoming novel, Shadow’s Journey. The second is from book two, Duty’s Song.
As always, let me know what you guys think.
Current listening: My husband and our friend playing DC Deckbuilding.
Well, I have a lot of nifty news to share. Twenty four hours and I’ll get to preview the final layout!
Shadow’s Journey has been submitted for Amazon’s review well ahead of schedule. Make sure you check me out on Facebook Live October 1st at 7 pm for the cover reveal! Now begins reviews to make sure the layout is right. This part is usually the most stressful me because I go through page by page to determine if the layout is right or text needs to shift. I get talked down from the ledge more than once during this time period.
We are THREE MONTHS from release! Three months! Stay tuned to my Facebook page for more updates and MAYBE some teasers. I’m really excited about this book because it advances a character whose story I have always loved. I hope you all love m favorite Shadow’s development too. I can’t wait to hear your feedback! I wonder if other authors get as psyched as I do when a plan comes together. Kudos to anyone who knows what 80’s classic show I’m referencing.
Five weeks from vacation! I cannot wait! I need to be out and unwind. See some old friends, enjoy GenCon and play some games. If any of you are at GenCon 50, by all means, drop me a message. 🙂 I’m excited to relax and game and just be with my husband for four days. It will be fantastic. What’s your favorite thing to do on vacation?
Current reading: Prophecy – Cassandra Morgan
Inspired by: “Come From Away” – Original Broadway Cast
So I have a major announcement. Shadow’s Journey will be released October 15, 2017. Please join me from 2-5 to celebrate at Gathering Volumes! I will be raffling off a copy of the new book. Can’t wait to see you there! Summer is here. What do you guys do in the summer? I admit, I read. I have never been the outdoorsy type. I like my books and my little corner of the world. I do like walks when it’s cool and sunny. The photo below is from one of my favorite parks in our area. I love walking down by the river. There is always -something- to see.
In other news, revisions are going well. I should finish right on schedule. This will be what I’m going back to as soon as I finish this blog post. 9 more files to goooo. Then onto layout. I have also written a little more of The Guardian’s Fall so those of you that have missed the continuation of that story will get to see more in the July edition of the Maeseloria Monthly. So, with that being said, back to work for me. Stay tuned to Facebook for information about the new book release. Hope all is well in your corners of the world! Take care.
Current Reading: Prophecy – Cassandra Morgan
Inspired by: My playlist, keep reading.
So I was inspired by a dear friend who posted on her blog about twenty songs that make her move. Check out her website here. I commented on her blog with my twenty songs that make me move and promised her that I would write up a little list of songs I write to. I am adding a twist to this. I’m giving you guys the list and a challenge. Tell me which characters you’d associate these songs with. I will tell you if they match what I utilize certain songs for. Game on guys! Keep reading, there’s a few book updates coming after the list. Feel free to steal for your own lists. I’ve linked a YouTube video to each song.
Top 20 writing songs
So, happy guessing. Comment with your thoughts below. I’m excited to see what you guys think. Also, what songs make you move? Thanks to Mia for the idea.
In other news, I have completed round one of revisions for Shadow’s Journey. Round two is underway. I am already flirting with ideas for the next book. (THANK YOU – You know who you are) School is out so finding time between parenting and work has been a challenge. We are shooting for an October release date. I say we because I might write them, I might publish them but my family and friends keep me level during the process. Thanks guys. ❤ Stay tuned for teasers.
Inspiration: If It Makes You Happy – Sheryl Crow
Thirty-seven has a way of forgetting what seventeen feels like. Especially when seventeen shows up and bludgeons you right between the eyes. Thirty-seven has a way of looking at seventeen and asking “what the fuck were you thinking?” At times, this can mean just about anything from questionable fashion choices to choices that impact and, perhaps, change the outcomes of the rest of our lives. I will be the first person to admit I did stupid shit. At seventeen I had big dreams but was so ill prepared to meet those challenges that I chuckle now. So seventeen smacked me upside the head tonight in the form of this photo: (Sandra’s note: If anyone that did not know me when I was seventeen can find me in this photo, brownie points to you.)
I no longer really keep up with the people I sat near in those days. I naively thought they would be the kind of friends that would be around forever. I could not have been more wrong. I lost track of everyone. The person I was then and the one I am now are very different people. In a way, I think that is how it was supposed to happen for me. I do not mean to say my growing process was different or more difficult than anyone else’s. Everyone’s journey is different.
I was a kid then. A kid who could not be certain what she wanted. A kid who was always afraid to say what she really felt because she did not trust herself. A kid who tried too hard to make everyone else happy and tried too little to figure out what made her happy. The kid I was probably could not have imagined me now and that’s okay. That growing up, I think, started my senior year but did not really gain traction until my early twenties. Having children forces you to grow beyond yourself. At least, I think it should. The girl I was could not understand that disappointment is a natural part of living, so is failure. That girl had not yet learned to pick herself up from those things. She learned the hard way, to be honest.
That girl expected it all to be sunshine and roses. I just smile at her now because I see her so often in my daughter. I see her uncertainty. I see her willingness to hide in her sarcasm rather than tell anyone what she really thinks and feels. I see her struggle “not to hurt anyone’s feelings” and hear her regret when she says things she “didn’t mean to” because she just couldn’t take it anymore and exploded. Yeah, I know that kid.
I am not at all ashamed of the girl I was. The girl I was, in a way, makes me the woman I am. The woman is wiser. The woman rushes less, thinks more. She trusts less, analyzes more. At times, she analyzes too much but hey, I am only human. So, it was hardly my intention when I wrote this to turn it into a depressing diatribe about the past. I just find the whole thing amusing and sad at once because, in hindsight, I see wasted and missed opportunities. When I look at it that way, I look at my husband and think, “Okay, maybe not wasted, those misses had purpose and brought me here. I wouldn’t trade here for anything.”
So, to end on a higher note. I looked up the top 100 songs of 1997. I graduated the summer of ’97. I look at this list and cringe a little because I am painfully reminded that popular is not always good. This chart is according to Billboard music. So be honest readers, did any of you jam out to any of the following top twenty songs:
|1||Elton John||Candle In The Wind 1997 / Something About The Way You Look Tonight|
|2||Jewel||Foolish Games / You Were Meant For Me|
|3||Puff Daddy and Faith Evans||I’ll Be Missing You|
|4||Toni Braxton||Un-Break My Heart|
|5||Puff Daddy||Can’t Nobody Hold Me Down|
|6||R. Kelly||I Believe I Can Fly|
|7||En Vogue||Don’t Let Go (Love)|
|8||Mark Morrison||Return Of The Mack|
|9||LeAnn Rimes||How Do I Live|
|11||Backstreet Boys||Quit Playing Games (With My Heart)|
|13||Monica||For You I Will|
|14||Usher||You Make Me Wanna…|
|17||Third Eye Blind||Semi-Charmed Life|
|18||Duncan Sheik||Barely Breathing|
|19||Az Yet feat. Peter Cetera||Hard To Say I’m Sorry|
|20||Notorious B.I.G.||Mo Money Mo Problems|
I have to admit I rocked out to Meredith Brooks and still do at times. I still love Semi-Charmed Life, Foolish Games, and Don’t Let Go. Did anyone else do the Macarena at senior homecoming? For the record, I still don’t dance. What are some of your favorite 90s tunes? This is just a snapshot of a year in my life. What does your snapshot look like?
….where I get to participate in my first blogger interview.
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Let me know what you guys think. Also, for the time being, the Maeseloria Monthly will be on hiatus, possibly until I finish revising Shadow’s Journey. Let me know what you guys thought of the interview. Take care!
Current reading: Prophecy – Cassandra Morgan / Mage: The Awakening, 2nd edition
Inspired by: The Chain – Fleetwood Mac
So a first happened for me on Thursday…
I got asked to speak at a writer’s group.
For those of you that know me well, I am not at all comfortable with being the center of attention. I am always stepping back for more knowledgeable, more eloquent people. I come across better in my writing than I do in person. I have an inordinate fondness for the word fuck. I am not always appropriate or fluent. I’m just me and, at times, I feel that’s inadequate for the task I am given. Do I bite the bullet and do it anyway? Sure. It just comes out kind of awkward.
Public speaking is a concept that terrifies me. Hell, at my first book signing I was too keyed up to do a reading . My teenager graciously agreed to do so. So being invited is a big deal to me. To the friend that invited me, thank you. To the people that graciously listened and asked questions while I tried to stammer through a coherent explanation to my process, getting published and everything involved with that craziness, thank you in duplicate. It really mean a lot to me that you feel like I have advice to give. And honestly, I’m a firm believer in paying it forward. When I started a support group did not exist. I knew no other writers in my local area to connect with.
Until I met my husband, people did not get that need to create inside me or respect the fact that it was a need in the first place. I did not understand the need half as well as I do now. I take that back. One person understood but at the time he was so mired in his own situations that I did not lean when I needed to. You know who you are. M’bad. ❤
I meant what I said at the end.
No matter what, keep going. Don’t hesitate. Life’s going to keep right on moving whether you do or not.
What have you got to lose?
So, in a nutshell, I got to meet some new folks who suffer from a lot of the struggles many of us do. Lack of time, stories fizzling out, ideas that always seem stuck in work-in-progress land. In truth, it happens to all of us. I have two or three unfinished, unfollowed through on ideas. Maeseloria takes up a great deal of my time and focus. Admittedly, the single track for my creativity helps with my focus. And, in truth, Maeseloria evolved from multiple stories that I played around with for years. I just found a thread to tie them together and it worked.
At any rate, to those in the group that may be reading this…thanks for having me. I’d be delighted to join you again sometime soon. If you need feedback, brainstorming, even a pep talk…or if you just want to shoot the shit, you have my email address.
In other related news, I see the light at the end of the first-round revision tunnel! The last chapter has been hand revised and needs keyed. That should be tackled this weekend. I’ll keep you posted. I am going to try and post more often here but life has been crazy as of late and the motivation on my part lacking. So with that being said, I am requesting feedback from all of you. What do you like to see on this blog? Do you enjoy the snippets and potential storylines? Do you like the life updates? The social commentary? Do you wish I would post more often? Throw me some feedback in the comments guys or email, or tweet or Facebook me. I’m pretty easy to find.